insomniatic ranting…. sleep??

trying to fall asleep, but to no avail…
listening to the noises of the house & wondering what the cat is getting up to

wondering why my creative muse seems to enjoy working during funny hours of the night…
or should I rather just wonder why my mind is working overtime?

been told quite a few times this last week that I do tend to overthink things & in that process I rob myself of sanity & valuable rest

I guess my creative subconscious just wants to figure out all possible scenarios…
trying to fix something that is kind of not in my control or in my hands

technically my body wants to sleep, but the thoughts about living life is making my head spin & keeping me from switching off & just actually going to sleep…

or maybe it’s the light of my electronic devices that’s playing games & mind tricks on an already kind of tired body (that I think I’m supposed to feel awake)

Another possibility is that I’m missing my Wolf…
his strong arms around me, just listening to him breath rhythmically (in a very weird way kind of my lullaby)
his presence to calm my mind & help me relax…
he’s out of town for a conference (guess it’s part of being an army wife & that I’ll just have to get used to having him being gone from time to time)

at least I’ve got the little bundle of love (Amore, our cat, who has now decided my legs are a great cushion to sleep on), a true stress absorber… I know she senses everything might not be alright & then comes to bring some love & warmth (& still seeking all the possible attention)

wondering what would happen if i should just try close my eyes for a moment…

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